Authentic - You know, like the old Levi 501's

Where in the heck have I been all of these months?  *Takes a deep breath*

Okay, well for those of you who used to read my page regularly, you know that I was finishing graduate school and was quite busy.  I was also helping my sister with my nephew on a regular basis, which also kept me very busy.  I was...in short...busy - too busy for PNN. 

But being busy is only half of the story - I was literally too busy for the changes in the swiftly changing environment at PNN.  To be truthful with each one of you, I used to come to PNN to be myself.  Over the winter, I found out that you can't be yourself on PNN unless you are a liberal "anything goes" kind of person who has an unbearably high level of tolerance for elitistism. That's just my opinion, but to me, thats my "truth".  I don't really care for relationship writers who talk about sex in the context of it being the basis of a relationship.  I don't have time to read reverse-racists posts that are acceptable only because the writer is in a minority race.  I don't need to bombarded with same-sex marriage supporters who, if given the chance, would call me close-minded because I believe that marriage is a Sacred Covenant between a man and a woman before God.  I also don't believe that arranging my furniture in a certain way will fill me with peace and joy. 

I've gotten a few nice notes from some of my readers saying that they miss me and I appreciate those notes.  I also know that a few scattered readers are out there as I still get starred.  I have to chuckle as everytime I am starred, I receive e-mails stating that I have been Flagged and Starred as many people associate flagging as a positive and noteworthy action instead of the negative action that it is on PNN. 

I have sat here for months wondering what I could say or how I could interact in a way that made me feel comfortable in my own Dell Computer Skin.  I didn't want to post anything because I didn't want to show my rage and anger against a blog that seems to have sold itself out for popularity.   I also knew that I couldn't say one decent thing about our former President, George Bush, keeping us safe for 7 years without a stream of protests from those who literally worship the ground the Great One walks upon.  Point blank, I don't go for "anything goes" commercialism and lately around here, that is all that seems to work.

What it all comes down to is this:  I want to be a strong voice for me and I don't want to waste my voice on those who don't want to hear what I have to say anyways.  I also don't care to be patronized by fly-by-night commentators who leave comments only to earn a paycheck or a coffee mug icon. 

Some of you may comment on this post and others of you may be far too embarassed to post.  I sense that has been the case in the past and while I am not asking anyone to comment, I would urge you to, for once, take a stand - even if its unpopular.  The last time I checked, I didn't have a third eyeball growing in the middle of my forehead which means that I certanly can't be the only person left on PNN who feels this way.  

Many blog posters come and go and if I go tomorrow, nobody will miss me for very long. Not only do I know that, I am also 100% okay with that.  But for this moment, this very moment, I have to be authentic for me and that means drawing one serious line in the sand.  If I decide to stay, I will be a reflection of the old PNN.  The PNN before free chocolates and pink laptop give-aways.  After all, if you love something, you shouldn't need to be enticed into participating, now should you?

God Bless!